Sigh.

After 5 fateful years my original monitor which has travelled with me from Florida to Maryland and back was finally replaced. If I walked by it or if I would hit enter on my keyboard the picture would flicker in an out. But if I picked it up and shook it really hard nothing would happen to it. So I decided it was time to get a new one. I snagged a 17" NEC Accusync today and so far it's decent. Just have to get the whole color thing worked out. My old one will be used when I put together the server. I have a feeling it's just my crappy computer table and my apartment, which rocks really bad just from me walking around.

Funny Happenings

Yesterday I was happily surfing my favorite websites. When I hear the joyous beep of new mail arriving. I gleefully speed my mouse pointer to Outlook Express and look at my Inbox. And lo to my surprise I received an email from an ex-girlfriend. Much to my surprise. I was quite curious about it and clicked it open. It contained only one thing, nary a word, just an image of her getting proposed to by her boyfriend. It was quite a shock, but a delightful one as it caused me much gleeful laughing. Wiping tears of laughter from my eyes I quickly forwarded the message to my friends so they may also get a chuckle, a giggle or even a belly aching laugh like I enjoyed. I paused for a minute to contemplate a response.

Did you say no??
Of course I'm curious as to why you sent this to me. While I'm sure it's a happy momentous occasion in your life. I could really care less. And I don't understand why you would even bother to send this to me. I will say it gave me quite a laugh and will probably amuse me for a few more days. Good luck and don't bother writing me.

Chris

Ah, what a chuckle. I've been chuckling over it every now and then. Of course the big kicker is this is the third time this "wondrous" occasion has occurred for her. Which has given me even greater giggles.

Sigh.

I have completed my two presentations. I was supposed to talk for about 20 minutes, unfortunately I talked to quickly and completed them in about half of that time. I hate talking in front of people, well to a certain degree. If I am a teacher it's a bit easier for me, not completely sure why that is. Only a few more days and the semester is over.

New Movies

I just came back from seeing Girl Next Door. Wasn't a terrible movie but unfortunately quite predictable teeny bopper movie. I sat through it and realized this isn't my thing anymore. I've been doing that alot lately. I've looked at shit and said to myself this isn't me. I mean I really like to do it but it's not fun anymore.
One of my friends is still in school, getting his masters, yet has no job but can't turn in a paper on time. And when you have to back out because you are doing more important things, like writing a paper and turning it in early. He will bitch about constantly. I mean grow the fuck up. There are more important things in life then sitting around.

My suggestions to him:
1) Get a job, you need it. 2) Just finish you degree, get the fuck out of school and get a real job. Grow up, it's scary as hell but we all have to do it sometime. 3) Stop fucking around with people's feelings and minds. It's obvious to everyone but you don't want to admit it to yourself. She makes you happy, you started on the path of not fucking it up. Just need to walk a little bit further.

Tired

My tiredness is getting worse and worse. I'm hardly sleeping, well I do sleep but it's not even close to restful sleep. At one point my new bed was so comfortable, not anymore. It's difficult to sleep. Have I really made the write decision?? I think I did. I'm actually quite happy with everything. There are a few things that still bother me. I'm more comfortable in a setting of academia. I'm more relaxed, I still stress about money, but they are paying me slave wages. I'm surviving, I can still enjoy myself. I'm enjoying teaching, I'm more at ease with everything I enjoy going in, well almost everyday I do. There are a few days I have to pull myself from bed. Those days unformatted are increasing. It's harder for me to get out. I put on the fake smile like nothing is bothering me. Why are people so immature? I went out to dinner with a friend the other day. Pensacola is a decent sized city, there are a few people I wouldn't mind avoiding, and I've done a decent job so far. Of course I am not lucky that day. It's funny my feelings have been burned away yet there is still some pain. Of course she leaves as soon as I sit down. Childish, I did nothing, just walked by made eye contact for a second. It makes me think about other things. I miss her children. I mean they weren't even my children, I wonder what her daughter does, she a little over a year old now. Is she walking? Her son is almost three now, did he go through the "terrible" twos? He was a brilliant child, he would clean up when you asked him to, he didn't make much of a fuss. I still have a juice stain in my car.

I've rambled on to much for tonight.

Three more weeks

I would say there are about 3 more weeks to go till I am finished my first semester as a Graduate student. All I have to say is it's more work than in the real world. You guys have it made sit around the office and masturbate all day, well some of them actually do, we won't name names. I'm in the lab from about 8 till 6 or so Monday through Friday, and then spend a few hours here and there on the weekends. So tired right now I want to the semester to be over.

Played around with the tsDesk, interesting way of using CSS to create shortcuts on a webpage to put as your background. Screenshot can be seen here.